I May Destroy You: Michaela Coel’s hit HBO series shows there are no easy answers to sexual assault

TV rarely gets as personal – or as singular in its vision – as I May Destroy You. Writer and director Michaela Coel stars as Arabella, a celebrated young writer who is drugged and raped during a night out with friends – a fact she pieces together after the fact from the fragmented images coursing through her mind. Over 12 episodes that boldly dart back and forth in time, the series follows Arabella and her best friends Terry (Waruche Opia) and Kwame (Pappa Essiedu) as they wrestle with the aftermath of the assault. I May Destroy You was inspired by Coel’s own experiences – not only as an assault survivor, but as the daughter of Ghanaian immigrants raised in working-class London and a creative person struggling to make a living by channelling her life into art. It has received ecstatic praise for its nuanced examination of sexual consent and the complications of race, gender, sexuality and class. The series’ authentic portrayal of contemporary, multicultural London has also won plaudits. Here the writer explains how the project came about. Workers: HBO presents con men on a Taiwanese construction site This series is based on your own experience with assault. How did you know it was something you had to write about? Very similar to Arabella, I wasn’t actually sure what it was that I was seeing in my head. Because I didn’t think that something could have happened to me, it meant that I was talking a lot from the very beginning. “There’s this thing in my head, what is this?” So before I could actually process and swallow and hide [the experience], I was already talking about it. This meant my journey was probably different from other sexual assault survivors, because I was just talking about a very disconnected image which I thought could have been a very strange dream. Which I think is lucky, because often what you would do is contain it. I began sort of taking notes half consciously when things would occur, like being in the police investigation room. I realise I am in this room because something bad has happened to me. As we waited for the detective to come in, I looked to my friend who was looking after me and realised he was playing Pokemon Go on his phone. It was funny. I didn’t laugh and he didn’t know that I could see him, but I just saw him and thought, “This is absurd.” You wrote all of 12 episodes of this, you co-directed it, you starred in it. You were involved in every creative decision. How did you keep yourself safe while you were reliving all of this trauma? Two things: I made sure I got at least seven hours of sleep every day. There was so much that I was doing that in order to do these things properly I felt like the first thing I had to do was sleep. Also I didn’t take a car to work – I cycled to work. So it would allow me to get endorphins going and clear my mind and have a moment of solitude. And we also had a drama therapist on standby the whole time, Lou Platt. She was very helpful, quite grounding. When occasionally things do get quite tough, you do remember this is your real life, and so I would meet with Lou. Lou was available to anybody, because the content was triggering for everybody. And, of course, not only did I have Lou, I had my own therapist. I like talking. The series explores different manifestations of sexual consent – like a character who takes a condom off while having sex with Arabella, or a threesome involving her best friend Terry that’s initiated under false pretences. How did you decide to centre on these grey areas? I think we call this area grey because there’s a lack of transparency. It seems grey and it seems blurry, but all we have to do is shine a torch on it and it will become clear. When you actually see somebody take the condom off, when we show it, it doesn’t look grey, does it? It’s so secretive and tricky, this behaviour, but when you actually show it and you have a torch tracking someone’s behaviour, it’s not very grey. Arabella also talks movingly about the sudden realisation that she belongs to two different tribes – that she is both Black and a woman – and the complications this creates for her. Is that something you have struggled with? That quote was actually born from my reality. I did a play called Blurred Lines; it was a devised piece [about gender inequality] in response to that song [by Robin Thicke]. A lot of the times I was just thinking I couldn’t relate to all these frustrations that all these people had. They would often say, “Michaela, what do you think?” And I actually said on one of those days, “Guys, I’m really sorry, I’m busy being Black and poor.” And it really broke the ice. It allowed us to understand where I was coming from a little bit more. And through that play I definitely learned to process a lot of things from my past that I just quite ignored about being a woman – the nuances of being a woman that I hadn’t engaged with because I was so busy being Black and poor. I May Destroy You is available on HBO on Demand, Now TV

I May Destroy You: Michaela Coel’s hit HBO series shows there are no easy answers to sexual assault

Coel’s hard-hitting and frank drama series about a rape victim shines a light on the grey area of sexual consent It’s also a nuanced examination of the complications of race, gender, sexuality and class

Coel’s hard-hitting and frank drama series about a rape victim shines a light on the grey area of sexual consent

It’s also a nuanced examination of the complications of race, gender, sexuality and class